It was April 27, 1994 when I miscarried a precious baby that would be our oldest child. I always picture that child as a boy who we named Evan. He would be 15 this year! FIFTEEN! Wow!

I've always felt sad on this day, remembering back then and yet as I go to sleep tonight, I feel a bit different than in days gone by.... you see, my Daddy is in heaven with my son (or daughter) this year. I wonder what kinds of conversations they've had. Can you imagine?! I can just picture my Daddy telling all kinds of stories about me to my child. Wow.

So I absolutely will NOT begin this post with excuses for my absence... no, I won't do that. After all, many nights I planned to blog, many nights I sat down to blog... does that count for something? ha I've even had blog posts in my head. Alas, what good does that do you, my faithful readers? (or have you forsaken me by now? MOM??? hee hee).

Let's see... since March 14th, I have been in upper back pain. I am now in physical therapy twice a week in hopes that it will help. I've just been through two sessions so far, so we'll give it a try.

For the past couple of months I have been falling asleep throughout the day, at the oddest times... once while walking in city hall, I started dozing! That was strange! Dangerous though is when on my way back home from Wal-mart, I fell asleep and woke up in another lane of traffic. Now, that was ridiculous!

SO, this coming Tuesday night (at this late hour- it's tomorrow night).... I will be undergoing a sleep study. They will be testing me for sleep disorders. My Daddy had sleep apnea. It is after all hereditary and so we shall see. I just know I need to wake up! (except for times like this when as I write it's after 2 a.m. and I'm not tired!). Uggh.

Thanks for being there.

Just a quick note to say the results came in tonight! NO melanoma!!! I do have to find out what's causing this excrutiating upper back pain, but praise the Lord no melanoma. I am trying to take this one step at a time. Rule something out, then another, etc. Thanks for the prayers! Keep them up!