No sense to explain my absence. I don't expect anyone is still seeking my blog out for updates but I just HAVE to write somewhere from time to time, and figure this is the best place. I mean I have facebook, but who REALLY wants to read my status update on there if all I do is complain? Sure, it's MY facebook, but this is my blog- you're more here reading my posts by choice then you are on facebook, when my update is thrown at you!

CANCER- I received the terrifying news on December 17th, 2010 as we rode in Indiana on our way to first, South Carolina for a couple of days, before we ultimately reached our home state of Florida, where we spent Christmas. Yes, I was diagnosed with Uterine Cancer. Why, oh why did it have to be the very cancer my aunt DIED with? I was in shock... am still in shock... more to come on that later. For now, I just really need to get some of this emotion out. I am rarely able to be at the computer just yet- supposedly recovering from surgery- it's been rough. A whirlwind of emotions- I have not yet let my mind wrap around the fact that I had cancer, and now , supposedly they got it all?

Sure, that's great news....please realize that I PRAISE THE LORD that the cancer was found to have spread, but "only" from the lining of the uterus to the uterus itself. Still, I find myself confused, terrified, scared. I have not had time to really comprehend I have/had cancer, and bam! I've already had a complete total abdominal hysterectomy, been sent straight into menopause, and here we go.

Now before anyone writes me with the "God didn't give us the spirit of fear," let me refer you back to a paragraph above where I said this is MY blog! Sorry, but emotions are emotions- I feel them. I KNOW the right answers but the human side comes out too, and that's o.k. It is what it is. I'll be back, but for now, the pain is overwhelming and I must get back to bed. Pray.