Sad Ethan

Ethan had a setback yesterday afternoon. I believe it had to do with me not being awake when he came home from school. Due to my fibromyalgia, I was extra tired today. Seth normally takes a nap at 3, right when Ethan comes home, and takes one as well. However, yesterday (Wednesday), Seth and I were in my bed talking and we both fell asleep! Glenn said Ethan seemed almost ready to cry when he went to his nap.

While I was cooking supper, Ethan came upstairs to get something. I held him a few minutes and noticed he was extra sad looking. Before it was over, he said, "I sad. You goin' leave me at cool." I explained that I would never ever leave him at school!, and I honestly have it figured out that he is associating school with the orphanage he was in (Guatemala). We even talked a bit about Guatemala and I explained (with the help of Cala I might add :o) that back when he lived there, I would have given anything to have him home with me. It just took time and we came for him as quickly as we could. Of course I don't know how much his four year old mind is grasping, but I will keep explaining whenever he needs it. I held him really close, made him make eye contact and said in English AND Spanish that I am his Mama forever and nothing is going to change that. Cala said, "you know we can't do without our Papito". (I call Ethan "mi papito"- my little daddy, a Spanish term of endearment).

Oh how my heart aches thinking about the losses Ethan has gone through in his short life. Strangely enough, it was age 4 when Cala began talking a lot about living in an orphanage, wanting a Mama and a Papa, etc. It was around the same time that she began talking almost daily about us never leaving her, etc. Now at age 8, she has that all straight in her mind and is trying to help re-assure her brother.

I sincerely pray that we get through to Ethan how much we love him and we aren't going anywhere... I told him, "you just try to get me away from you! You're stuck with me!"